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what you deserve
Have you ever thought to yourself: “I deserved that.” I am sure you have. I know I have. You made a misstep, and fell upon some misfortune. You exercised poor judgment and something bad happened. You mistreated someone and they mistreated you back. You made a mistake and now you are paying the price. Perhaps…
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turn the page
I watched as they hauled the last of our stuff away. I reminded myself they are just things. “Let us remember this for the next time. All of these things, we are getting rid of” I said to my wife a few days ago. And it is true, we kept what have value to us,…
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father’s day
I dropped off my wife and children at the airport this morning. We are at the beginning of our next adventure and they are leading the way, with me to follow. I returned home and experienced unexpected sadness. I will rejoin with them in about a week and a half, and that is sad to…
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from the ashes?
Where are you right now? Your Self will meet your self there. So much that surrounds you leads you to believe you are not enough. Your career, your health, your relationships, your financial situation, your knowledge. None of that is true, of course. You are one with the Source, by definition you are all and…
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partial surrender
One of the ego’s tricks and why many struggle on the path to peace is they convince themselves they can “surrender” the challenging parts of their lives to “God” or the “Source”, whatever makes them feel comfortable, and continue to control what they believe is going well. This is a delusion. There is no such…
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and if i sing you are my voice,
I was going through some things and came across an “old” journal with a passage from January 2017 that contained nothing but the closing from ee cummings “Hate blows a bubble of despair” It is a beautiful line and one that almost assuredly touched me at a time when I was in the early stages…
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blue days
Recently, I read “Blue Nights” by Joan Didion. In my last post I referenced her “The Year of Magical Thinking” which was her exploration of the feelings she had following the passing of her husband John Gregory Dunne, which just so happened to coincide with the critical illness of her daughter Quintana Roo. “Blue Nights”…
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death after life
A few days ago, I began reading “The Year of Magical Thinking” by Joan Didion. I picked it up in part due to Ryan Holiday highly recommending it, but also in large part due to the subject matter. The loss of my father a few years ago and still coming to terms with that, but…
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the mirror
We often hear a voice calling softly to us to follow. It is a voice that we are programmed to look for, that we believe we hear when we ask God for guidance and support. The Voice of God, the clarity we long for. So, we spend our life chasing it. We feel like we…
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150 books
I am currently in the middle of a deep reading of The Count of Monte Cristo and I came across the following quote from Abbe Faria: I had nearly five thousand volumes in my library at Rome; but after reading them over many times, I found out that with one hundred and fifty well-chosen books a…